03/22/2026
EVIL WARNING this is kindof venty because i am lowkey traumatized from someone evily looking through my window at 4 am like 3 weeks ago and i also mention evil disordered eating
i have been really paranoid all day especially at night since i caught someone looking through my window at 4 am that one time. I have started to be scared to leave my room at night and sometimes even in the day and its making my house kind of gross because i get scared to throw trash away so theres a lot of soda bottles in my room and some other trash, and i have missed cleaning my cats litter boxes a few times because im too scared to go leave my room to clean them. The way my house is layed out is like the living room and kitchen are one big room in the front, and in that big room theres a big window to the front yard, and directly across from the window is a hallway where the bedrooms and bathroom are, so every single time i leave my room i have to look out that window. That window is where i saw the person, i remember seeing them looking into my window about halfway in my yard and it was after i left the bathroom and i remember i just froze in the doorway and stared at them and then they turned around and walked out of my yard to the left. the person had on a black hoodie, black pants, and had a backpack on and i couldnt see their face because they had their hood up. i had called my dad after because i was home alone and scared and he kept telling me the guy was probably looking at the house because its being sold but i dont think so because wearing all that shit and it was FOUR IN THE MORNING. ik i already said this a bit after it happened but i left out a lot and im thinking a lot about it because im so scared every single night. In the original blog i said something about having a big dog that barks in a very big dog way at sounds outside, but shes old as shit and cant move fast IF something happens and clearly she didnt notice someone LOOKING THROUGH THE WINDOW because she didnt bark at anything that night and just stayed asleep on my couch. I really hate it a lot that this happened, i dont feel safe in my house, i havent felt safe in my house for weeks because of this, ive had nightmares about it, and i dont even think my dad believes me :( and i dont even know if i can believe myself about it even because it doesnt feel real it feels like i had a bad dream or hallucinated something but theres CLEAR evidence it did happen from me texting my dad and my phone saying when i called him :( it has also stressed me out to the point where i have started binge eating more than i already did and i feel awful and before this i already have been dealing with being really paranoid at night because im scared of windows and being watched and the dark and people breaking into houses so this made it ten times worse. I was kindof joking about it after it happened but it isnt funny anymore and i dont feel safe
